Fighting with destiny :’)
I have always been a fighter and it took me thirty long years to make peace with the fact that you can never win a battle against fate. Let’s travel back to the time when I was born. My parents had been expecting a boy to grace their lineage. To their utter disappointment, I was born. Thus, eight years and three months later when my baby brother was born, my family left no stones unturned to enlighten me with the truth that I was their second preference. And will always be.
I never thought that friendship could be ranked. And when I came to know that it did, out of the billions of people in the world out there.I thought there would be somebody to offer me the first rank. Alas! It never happened. For them, I have always been the option they could turn to when they had none. I was the first priority in nobody’s life.
love entered my life:
All my struggles and pain came to an end when I fell in love with the man of my dreams and he chose me back. But naive me! I never knew that love too, like life, is a race where you have to keep fighting to have the upper hand. That you need to continuously keep on proving yourself to be better than the next best alternative. I failed. And thus I lost him to someone who was much hotter, smarter and richer than what I could ever be!
Today, as I stand to hold my husband’s shirt, with the lipstick stains of his lover on it, I just smile to myself, remembering all those times when I lost because I couldn’t win against fate. Because I was never good enough. I have always been a fighter. And it took me thirty long years to realize that you can never wage a war against destiny.
Learning and mastering the art of endurance is the only key to survival. And of living? Perhaps, it would take me another lifetime to figure that out. I am not going to quit nor am I going to commit suicide but I will learn to live with my pain and be strong enough to face those hard comments which are used for me for no reason. I am going to be stronger even stronger and show this world I am not weak, I am someone who can fight destiny to achieve what I want and one day I will